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​My mind is always used to running
It's actually kind of stunning
Because everything always seems to start crashing and burning
My heart wants to be alive and have fun
But my mind always tries to sprint and run

My heart is used to falling
But my mind is used to recalling
The terrible memories and feelings
Of the times my heart broke while trying
Love hasn’t been good to me
Or maybe my mind is going too fast for me to see
the world that loves you and me

When my heart makes a decision
My mind decides to finally pay attention
And slow down and let me look
At the heart that is all rattled and shook
From the times that I was just too late
To let my heart speak with truth and faith
That I want to be happy and that I want to be honest

So please mind stop holding my heart hostage
Please work together to let me live
A life where my stomach is filled with butterflies
And not my mind holding a magnifying glass to analyze
Trust my heart that its doing the right thing
And help it to make us more than just a fling

Lets us care and let us walk
Lets us smile and lets us talk
To the one that makes us happy and laugh
I know it seems like a scary task
But it's even scarier when we are alone at our last
Hour or breath, knowing that we stopped trying

So please,
Let's stop being used to running.

cameron gonzales

he/him/his